Suffer

I cried myself to sleep again last night and I cried again just now while watching the television.I feel so upset that I couldn't take it anymore and guess who is beside me consoling me?Nobody.It has been a thousand times that I close myself in the room,hide myself under the comforter and cry aloud.Sue yen,I know you will scold me if I tell you about this again.But,when I really need somebody to be with you,nobody is there.At the same time,I am too afraid to tell them why am I crying again.It's hard to forget a person who hurts you so much and whom you love so much.I don't mind hating anybody else but the person that I am talking about is somebody whom I have fallen in love with and it really hurt me so much that now he doesn't even care about me anymore.There is nothing that I can do except for crying alone.I don't want to make myself so pitiful but the scar that he leaves behind is hurting me every single moment.I can still remember the day when he left,I was crying while hugging teda telling her that I miss him so much.Two days later,he asked for a break-up and then he doesn't even want to see me again.Imagine how will you feel when you are in my situation.