Cooking

Sue yen,thanks for your post.He called my just now and I told him that I really miss him and I can't forget about him so easily as he did.I hate it when he said at least he lived a better life than me now.Who is the one who bring all this sufferings to me?Who is the one who make my life miserable?I feel like an idiot for missing a guy like that but I can't deny the fact that I really do miss him but he has changed.The guy I used to fall in love with doesn't exist anymore.I did do what suggest me to do.In middle of the night,I start cooking sambal which I may not even have the appetite to eat.Cutting the onion makes me cry again but I feel better because I didn't cook for myself this time.I cook for the old "him" whom I miss so much but "he" doesn't exist anymore.