There is so much stuffs to study but I only have so little time to spend

When I look at all those difficult materials that I need to study, I feel so stress and dizzy. Why the most difficult exams always come first? How can I understand all those difficult materials that I had leave behind all this while in such a short time? I feel like screaming right now! Aaaaaaaaaaaaaa..........................When can I get into my study mode?

It's my time to shine

The Women in Computer Science Banquet






Before the CS Award Ceremony(Went Shopping with Karen)






CS Awards Ceremony









After all those tears that I had dropped and all those sleepless nights that I had to spent with my laptops, my hard work finally paid off! I was awarded the Motorola Academic Scholarship by the CS Department of my beloved university. Thanks for my family and my friends who support me all this while. I wouldn't forget all the professors and TAs who had taught me with great patience.Thanks a lot! ^_^

是时候该为即将来临的考试努力奋斗了！

今天终于送走了Karen。虽然这几天玩得高兴极了，几乎把即将来临的考试也抛出脑外，但我心里明白快乐的时光总会在一瞬间偷偷溜去。今天早上起来时，我便告诉自己要开始努力准备星期五的考试了！看来熬夜念书的日子快要开始了！在此我要对其他将要面对大考的姐姐与朋友加油打气，我们一同加油吧！

Graduation night 2008

要是下一秒我即将从这个世界消失。

昨天晚上，当我独自躺在那舒适的床上即将进入梦乡时，突然间我感觉到整个世界仿佛在震动似的。闭上了的门发出厌人的声音并不停地抖动，仿佛门的另一端有一个巨人在敲门似的，就连半睡半醒的我也感觉到我的床在不断地摇动。这时候，原本已不大稳固的天花板就像要塌下来似的，让我觉得自己就快要死去似的。害怕的我因为并未曾体验过地震的滋味，所以只好安慰自己说这只不过是一场恶梦，然后便躲在被单中渐渐地睡着了。今天早上当教授问起地震的事时我才发觉昨晚所发生的不是一场梦，而是我真的经历了我人生的第一次地震！虽然根据新闻报导，昨天发生的只不过是一场轻微的地震，但当我想起昨晚的事时我却觉得十分害怕，害怕我再被迫要与我亲爱的家人与朋友告别了。今天的我一直在想要是一秒我即将从这个世界消失了呢？人的一生中难免会有少许的遗憾，那我呢？我有什么话要对任何人说但却无法说出口的吗？我有什么事想要做但却无法完成的吗？我知道这断时间我几乎冷落了爱我的家人，但我希望他们能了解我对它们的爱与思念，我希望能对我亲爱的家人表达我对他们的爱，我希望在我离开的前一秒能亲眼见到我的家人。我知道我真的不希望在这遥远的他乡死去，甚至有时候我明明知道自己那虚弱的身体已快要撑不下去了我还是硬撑着，一直告诉自己远离故乡的我不能让爱我的人担心。但，人有悲欢离合，月有阴晴圆缺，人总会要向这个美丽的世界告别的，不知道我离去的那一天会是什么时候能？我敬爱的家人与我亲爱得朋友，要是下一秒我即将从这个世界消失，你们会怀念我吗？我知道我会永远把你们放在心上的。

失眠的夜晚

今晚的我虽觉得有点累，但却不想睡，虽知道还有做不完的功课，但却只想把它们暂时忘掉。我失眠了吗？是因为我已经习惯了熬夜至凌晨吗？还是因为我不想这个星期五的夜晚那么快就结束？听着那温柔的音乐，对着那几乎与我朝夕相对的电脑，心中突然有一种说不出的平静。不为功课或考试而熬夜，只因为我爱黑夜的宁静而未入睡。哦，是的，这样的夜晚应该就是我所期待的吧。好希望下一寂静的夜晚能尽快来临哦！

我累了

今天早上起来时，觉得双眼好痛哦，大概是因为昨晚哭了的关系吧。我好不愿意离开那温暖的床，但我知道老师会点名，所以只好拖着那疲累无比的身躯去上课。平时上Physics课时，贴心的教授总会在中途时播放一些好笑的影片，通常我会笑得好开心，但今天即使我明明觉得那段影片真的很搞笑，我只能勉强的挤出一丝丝的微笑，仿佛是为了应酬而笑似的。中午回到房间时，我很快便躺在床上睡着了。在那短短一小时的睡眠里，我做了一个可怕的恶梦，最后还从梦中惊醒，被逼起床准备上下一堂课。迷迷糊糊的我觉得整个世界仿佛在旋转似的，就连走路也差一点撞到人。好不容易上完最后一堂课，但却要准备晚餐。也许做饭真的需要用心，今天的我连最简单的炒饭也炒不好，就连自己也觉得难以入口，怎么让Teda和Ily吃呢？我累了，我真的累了，我真的不晓得我那疲累的身躯还能撑到多久。

I wish I can be sick......at least i can give myself a break then

Didn't really eat much these few days....It is really a choice between food and sleep. Whenever I don't have enough sleep,I really don't have appetite to eat. Maybe you think that eating doesn't cost me that much time, but I need to spend time on cooking. I know very well that as long as I still have energy to do my work, I will keep doing unless I get sick.I really want to give myself a break.....but what can I do?Letting go is really not that easy especially when my target is to get to the top.

Heatlh VS Study

Today,in the beginning of my system programming class, my lecturer said "I hope that everyone in this class will be proud of what they did when graduating from the school". His words make me start thinking of my future, of my plan after graduating.I suddenly realized that I will a junior next semester and that I have to start preparing for my graduate school application. I knew that it is hard to get into the challenging 5-Year Master+Degree program because I have to maintain a GPA of 3.5 throughout the undergraduate years and 3.0 throughout the graduate years but I still want to give it a try. Looking back to my past semesters, I would say that I have no regret since I have tried my best in my studies. I had dropped countless tears due to the stressful student life over here. I complained so many times to my friends about my loneliness and even told that I want to commit suicide before. In the past semesters, all I did was studying and I didn't even bother to socialize and makes friends but I have started to take the initiative to expand my social circles by making more friends. I was sick these few days and my energy level was so low that I feel too weak to handle anything but I realized something. I realized that there is no limit to my commitment to my responsibility as a student but there is a limit to what my physical body can endure. Since primary school, I always choose fulfilling my responsibility as a study over my health. I could still remember that I had a fever and can't really wake up for class when I was in primary school and yet all I think about is the homework I need to hand in that day and the classes that I needed to attend. It is really not easy for me to continue doing my work when I knew that somehow my body can't really take it anymore.That's why I broke down so often and cried but this is my own choice. I can only pray that I would have enough strength to endure the pain. Hopefully my efforts will be paid off well. Could I finish writing my position paper on time? Sigh.......