Heatlh VS Study

Today,in the beginning of my system programming class, my lecturer said "I hope that everyone in this class will be proud of what they did when graduating from the school". His words make me start thinking of my future, of my plan after graduating.I suddenly realized that I will a junior next semester and that I have to start preparing for my graduate school application. I knew that it is hard to get into the challenging 5-Year Master+Degree program because I have to maintain a GPA of 3.5 throughout the undergraduate years and 3.0 throughout the graduate years but I still want to give it a try. Looking back to my past semesters, I would say that I have no regret since I have tried my best in my studies. I had dropped countless tears due to the stressful student life over here. I complained so many times to my friends about my loneliness and even told that I want to commit suicide before. In the past semesters, all I did was studying and I didn't even bother to socialize and makes friends but I have started to take the initiative to expand my social circles by making more friends. I was sick these few days and my energy level was so low that I feel too weak to handle anything but I realized something. I realized that there is no limit to my commitment to my responsibility as a student but there is a limit to what my physical body can endure. Since primary school, I always choose fulfilling my responsibility as a study over my health. I could still remember that I had a fever and can't really wake up for class when I was in primary school and yet all I think about is the homework I need to hand in that day and the classes that I needed to attend. It is really not easy for me to continue doing my work when I knew that somehow my body can't really take it anymore.That's why I broke down so often and cried but this is my own choice. I can only pray that I would have enough strength to endure the pain. Hopefully my efforts will be paid off well. Could I finish writing my position paper on time? Sigh.......