A Make Over For My Bedroom

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Wonder what do I usually do after my exams? I will start cleaning my room since I have been throwing everything all over the place during my exams. I think I did a pretty good job in cleaning it.I like my room now!!!!! ^-^

A song that My sister and I always sing when we go to Karaoke

My family

Looking at Sue Yen's sister photos reminds me of my family.I remember my mum used to call me everyday I was back in INTEC. But,after I came to US,I seldom talk to my mum and my sister already.Even though they still call me once in a while,I am too afraid to call them already.I remember back at home,I will hide in my room whenever I feel sad and then my sister will always come and console me so I can't really hide anything from my family especially my sister.She is like my best friend whom I always share my feelings and thought with. Why I stop calling them then?It is not that I don't care about them or forget about them.It's just that I just don't want them to be worried about me and that's why I always call them after I have settled every problem that I face. I know that if my mum were to know that I cry very often and feel very unhappy over here,she will be so worried that she may even ask me to give up and go back to Malaysia. There are times when I feel so tired that I just want to give up but whenever I thought of them,I will keep telling myself that I have to stay strong for my family because they are the only reason that keeps me here. Maybe the cost of growing up is to suffer separation from your loved one but deep down I know that I miss my family so much.There is no really place like home.
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Last day of class

Finally it is the end of my last day of instructions. To celebrate this special day,I would like to give a brief description of what I have accomplished in this tough and challenging semester. Firstly,I wish to announce proudly that I have only missed one single class for this semester which is actually an optional review session for every Friday and I have a pretty reasonable excuse for missing that class- to sign the 2008 lease for my apartment. Maybe some people will think that class attendance is not really a big deal but according to what I learned from my psychology class,attending class is one of the determinant for success in college even though it is not a sufficient condition for success. Among all the classes I have taken this semester,I like psychology the most simply because it is applicable to my daily life. However, I feel strongly that both cs courses that I have taken has prepared me well for my future career. Even though I struggle hard with my C++ class,I feel that I have learned a lot from it and it enables me to give more professional opinions about the pro and cons of different algorithms. To mark the end of this class, my professor decided to held a pizza party + review session(in the form of a game show) tonight so I am really looking forward for the party tonight and hopefully it will be fun.

First snow

Last night I didn't have enough sleep so I was quite unwilling to wake up for my 9am class today.But,it is the second last day of the semester before the finals so I get up anyway even though my head is still spinning.Suddenly,the brightness of the sunlight outside the window grabs my attention so I draw my curtain and found out that almost every corner along the street is covered with snow.It is the first snow of the year.I remember the first snow I had ever seen in US is not that beautiful since it is not heavy enough and it only lasted for a few hours but this year it is awesome.I wish that I have time to enjoy the snow and took some photos but today is such a busy day.After coming back from class,I had to go to TA office hour to ask about the problem with my circuit design. My TA turned out to be not that helpful but I still manage to solve the problem by myself. I was supposed to hand in my homework by 5pm but I barely finished around that time so I have to run towards the office and hand in my last homework for circuit design.I have never hand in my homework in the very last minutes before but I guess I wouldn't have chance to do it again this semester since classes will be after two days. When I walk out from the office,the sky is already dark. Sigh....I wish that I could at least take a picture of the snow.

Thank you for your motivation

I remember the first when I tried to make the sambal, I feel like giving up because it is so spicy that it actually burns my hands.But,because of my promise to you,I was crying while cooking my first nasi lemak. However,only the rice turns out to be nice and eatable but the sambal is such a disaster that Teda even makes fun of me. However,luck is on my side for the second time and from that time onward,I am quite proud of my cooking skills. So,today,I invited my senior to come over and tasted my nasi lemak.Hahaa.....He finished 3 bowls of rice and praised that I can actually start selling nasi lemak along the street in Malaysia.....Hahhaha.....He says the rice is the best compare to the eggs and the sambal because I put the right amount of santan and ginger...Hahhaha......But,he also comments about me not frying the ikan bilis before mixing it with the sambal.Sigh.....He always try to pick out my small mistakes....But,still,I am thankful for being able to learn how to cook nasi lemak by myself because I can actually cook for my friends whenever they visit me.I just want to say thank you for the person who motivates me in learning to cook nasi lemak.Hope that you will have the chance to try my version of nasi lemak....

My life

What have done these few days? I was attending classes,doing homework in front of my laptop and studying. I am eating just for the sake of eating.I am eating just to survive. I went to sleep when I am tired and when I want to escape from reading and doing homework. So,basically,my life is mostly dominated by my studies.How many hours I spend in front of my laptop?My answer will be almost every single moment when I am awake minus the time I spent in class.My roommate encouraged me to go out and socialize more often. I was quite surprised by the fact people actually have to telling me to relax and have fun because I was not that kind of person who like to stay alone in the house all the time.In fact,if someone was to tell me to stay alone for one day without talking to anybody,it will be a cruel punishment for me. Is it true that I have started to develop an antisocial personality?Is it true that I keep locking myself up in a small space and avoid those situation where I feel insecure? I am quite worried about myself and yet I don't know what to do. I know that I feel unhappy living this way but maybe this is what I choose to be. Computer is my only life for it will never betray me.

Escape from the real world

Today when I was about the step out of the house rushing for classes,my housemate ask if I am okay since she heard me crying last night.I try to force a smile on my face to avoid answering her question.There had been so many times that I had cried silently under my comforter hoping that the pain will disappear or I will be able to fall asleep in the end.But,I cried aloud underneath my comforter last night.Sue yen,I remember you telling me that I may not be so lucky that whenever I cry,I will have a listener who is patient enough to hear me crying.But,I realized that even though I can call somebody and cry on the phone,I still hope that there will be somebody besides me giving me a hug and telling me that everything will be fine.The sad part is that that somebody never actually exist.I am so afraid of living in the real world now because I am so afraid of having all kinds of negative emotions that will kill me deep down. This time I want to escape from the real world by entering the world of computer so decided to continue writing this post using the assembly language that I had learned.


START LD Post,(My Memory 1)
AND Physical Pain Crying, Painful Menstrual Periods
AND Mental Pain,Forget him while missing him, Pretend tat I am fine when answering
his call
MUL Torture, , Physical Pain,Mental Pain
BN Emotion, #H
BNN Emotion, #S
BZ Emotion,#R

H SUB Final level of happiness, Initial level of happiness, A call
S ADD Worse, Crying, Loneliness
R ROBOT with no feeling

ST (My Memory 1) , Date
ADD Date,Date,1
JUMP START