WHAT DO I LOOK FOR IN A GUY?

1. Must be taller than me because i am short enough.
2. Preferably wear glasses.
3. Have a attractive and friendly smile.
4. Serious at work and hardworking.
5. Must not be a smoker or a alcoholic.
6. Must be sincere to friends and family.
7. Willing to share my happiness and sadness.
8. Willing to listen to me when I need someone to talk to,especially at night.
9. Must keep his promise to me.
10. Preferably willing to wear pink shirts.
11. Must know how to speak mandarin but he doesn't have to be a chinese.
12.....re-consider next time.

Coffee and me

It's one o'clock in the morning but I am still awake as usual.Why I want to stay up so late at night to study?I could have waken up early in the morning like others but I prefer the night atmosphere. I have the blinking stars and bright moon to keep me accompany. I think somehow I begin to claim midnight as my secret territory because I could have total privacy almost every wonderful night. When sun rises, I have to be active and catch up with the busy hustle and bustle of the city. So, I promise myself to give myself a break at night. Guess what is my best friend in the middle of the night? Coffee!!! Here I am.Making coffee under the moonlight again. Actually,I don't like drinking coffee that much.Sometimes I even think that coffee is too bitter. But, I like to let the aroma of the coffee wafts through the air. The smell of the coffee is so tempting that I want to take a sip of it. So,basically,drinking coffee in a quite and peaceful night is the best treat for me after a tiring day.

Computers

When my friends told me that one has to think like a machine if one wants to succeed in computer science, I was so surprised that no words come out from my mouth. I didn't realise that it was so difficult for a girl to study computer science until I came to this country. In most of my classes, you can only see a few girls decorating the lecture hall. Yes, women can definitely be considered as minority in the computer science department. In fact, a considerate professor even set up unisex class for the advantage of this group of "minority" students. What make it so hard to be a woman in computer science? Of course, computer science might turns out to be a more challenging course for a little girl like me but deep down I tell myself that nothing is impossible. My lecturer mentions something about artificial intelligence that grabs my attention. Can a computer be more intelligent than a normal human? When computer was first introduced, many people were afraid that computers will eventually take over the role of human beings in most important industries. However, they seem to overestimate the ability of a computer. The truth is that a computer can only solve algorithms and nothing else. Alan Turing even able to prove that there are some problems which is considered easy for us but cannot be solved by a computer. It is sad that people tend to neglect the fact that computers are invented by human beings. If humans are much more intelligent than computers, what makes it difficult for one to think like a machine? Maybe because most people are not confident with their ability. My advice is believe in yourself and try your best to make your dreams come true!

Courage

I used to be afraid of studying alone at night but I am willing to drop countless tears while holding a textbook in the middle of the night.I used to be very afraid of loneliness.But, I was brave enough to leave my beloved ones in the search of knowledge. I used to be afraid of walking alone in the dark but to attend class, I will drag my body to walk telling myself that there are nothing to be afraid. I used to be afraid of travelling alone from one place to another but I tell myself that there is nothing to be afraid of if you really love somebody. But he asks to take back my courage and tell me to be the old me who afraid of everything. Why ask me to be afraid of everything again? Why not give it a try? Are you sure that you won't regret if you don't give it a try? Love is about learning to give and receive but I won't learn if you always deny my love. I would like to learn from you, learn to appreaciate our resources,learn to protect our mother earth but you just want to keep your knowleadge to yourself. I do not intend to change who you are because I like the real you. I blame myself for not being able to give you the courage you need. I blame myself for not being able to be afraid again. Sorry for having the courage to tell you that love you. Sorry for having the courage to accept you.Sorry for my courage.

Summer

When I woke up today, I was greeted by rays of the red hot sun. I could not believe my eyes when I saw the bright sun shining in the blue sky. I used to be pampered by the warmth of the sun when I was back in my home country but now I began to appreciate this gift of God when the cruel winter stole away my red burning sun. I have to admit that sometimes I am so greedy that I want to see both the smiling sun and the happy snowman from my window but I know very clearly that it is impossible. In real life, we cannot have everything that we want since we will have to make a choice at certain stage of life. Have we made the right choice? We will never know the answer to this question even after we have taken responsibility for our decision because every path leads to a different life. However, throughout the process of making a wise decision, we learned. We learned to appreciate the people and things around us. We learned to sacrifice for love which is the most precious things in our life. I remember when I first came to this country; I told myself that I have to be strong enough to bear with the pain of not having my beloved family beside me. Since I have made the decision to study abroad, I will take the full responsibility for the choice that I made but this does not mean that I have to give up my love for my family. Even though they are so far away from me now, I can still feel their love and they will always stay in my heart wherever I am. They are people who shower me with love and give me support when I am about to give up. I own them so much but what can I do to repay them? Someone once says that love can never be repaid. I would say that it is true that there is nothing I can do to repay their priceless love. The only thing that I can do is to take good care of myself because I know that they love me so much that they only wish me to be happy always. Deep down, I know that I miss them so much but what can do? I can only wait. I can only wait for the summer to come. I can only wait for the time for reunion to come. But, before that, I will have to wait patiently for the time to come. Now, I can only welcome the arrival of the red hot sun with open arms and hope for summer to come.

Have I lost myself?

I remember the olden days days when I used to care so much about people around me but now I think somehow studying abroad in this lonely piece of land has brought some negative changes on me. Can I blame on my defense mechanism that protect me from missing home? I feel that I am so weak when I start crying because I miss my loved ones who are so far away from me. To prevent myself from dropping tears, I try to avoid thinking alone because everytime when I fall into serious thought I will sure end up crying for hours. But,I forget about one thing. Does missing someone makes one appear weak?No.I remember asking myself the same question when I first came to US but now I seem to forget about it. Maybe I need time. I know that it is difficult to learn to be independent especially for a person who used to depend so much on her parents but I am confident that I will discover a way to keep things in balance. Now, the most important thing is that I found the old me.Thanks to you. Reading your blogs reminds me of my past. It reminds me of how I used to care so much about those around me and I am so sorry that I have neglect your feelings for all this while. My best friend once told me that she like the old me and wish that I will always stay the same. I learn that I shouldn't sacrifice my love for others in order to be more mature. I promise myself that I will start caring for others again, especially for you.Please give me a chance to show my unconditional love to you.
- shinhwei-

National Service

I finally graduates from national service in Kem Kepimpinan Gemilang Gopeng.I have become darker but i have learned a lot from all the activities that i take part in.There are 4 modul in this whole programme.In modul physical,I went jungle trekking,canoeing and learned how to survive in the jungle.My least favourite activity is marching because i have to march under hot weather.Modul kenegaraan is the most boring modul.Since we had to wake up very early in the morning,we often grabbed this opportunity to sleep in the class.However, we are lucky because our teacher,Cikgu Mazlan is young and good-tempered.Then, we attended classes for modul character building.In this modul,we learned more about ourselves and met many new friends.We even learned how to set our target and try to achieve our goals.After that,I had chance to visit police station in Batu Gajah,RTM in Ipoh,fire station in Gopeng,Jabatan Pertahanan Awam 3 in Ipoh,Kampung Orang Asli in Ulu Kinta,Tabika Perpaduan Malim Nawar and Angkatan Tentera Malaysia in Ipoh during modul community service.I even got the opportunity to go shopping in Tesco.In the last day,we had a farewell party in the hall.I felt sad because i had to say goodbye to my teachers and friends who cares and loves me.So, i want to take this opportunity to thank my teachers and friends especially Cikgu Zulidia binti Wahid for their help.

Friendship

  你是否记得那短暂却值得珍惜的日子吗？或许对你而言，那些事不值得一提，但我深信这是我一辈子不能忘记的。我怎能忘了我们一同走过的日子呢？我们曾一同被老师罚站，一起高声歌唱，手牵着手，向梦想迈进。虽然争吵是难免的，但彼此的感情却从未因此而受影响。
 
  现在，是说分手的时候了。我知道无论说什么、做什么、流多少眼泪，都无法阻止分离的来临。是的，我不舍得让这段友情从我手中溜走。可是，我又能做些什么呢？朋友，请你别把我忘记，希望你永远记得这段真挚的友谊，愿你我的友谊永固！
 
FRIENDSHIP  FOREVER！