Karen's visit to U of I

Dinner at Mandarin Wok




Dinner at Bombay (Indian Restaurant)





Breakfast(Dim Sum) At Mandarin Wok







Dinner At Basil Thai


Photo-taking with Alma Mater








I love the Quad!!!!It is so beautiful! ^_^

There is so much stuffs to study but I only have so little time to spend

When I look at all those difficult materials that I need to study, I feel so stress and dizzy. Why the most difficult exams always come first? How can I understand all those difficult materials that I had leave behind all this while in such a short time? I feel like screaming right now! Aaaaaaaaaaaaaa..........................When can I get into my study mode?

It's my time to shine

The Women in Computer Science Banquet






Before the CS Award Ceremony(Went Shopping with Karen)






CS Awards Ceremony









After all those tears that I had dropped and all those sleepless nights that I had to spent with my laptops, my hard work finally paid off! I was awarded the Motorola Academic Scholarship by the CS Department of my beloved university. Thanks for my family and my friends who support me all this while. I wouldn't forget all the professors and TAs who had taught me with great patience.Thanks a lot! ^_^

是时候该为即将来临的考试努力奋斗了！

今天终于送走了Karen。虽然这几天玩得高兴极了，几乎把即将来临的考试也抛出脑外，但我心里明白快乐的时光总会在一瞬间偷偷溜去。今天早上起来时，我便告诉自己要开始努力准备星期五的考试了！看来熬夜念书的日子快要开始了！在此我要对其他将要面对大考的姐姐与朋友加油打气，我们一同加油吧！

Graduation night 2008

要是下一秒我即将从这个世界消失。

昨天晚上，当我独自躺在那舒适的床上即将进入梦乡时，突然间我感觉到整个世界仿佛在震动似的。闭上了的门发出厌人的声音并不停地抖动，仿佛门的另一端有一个巨人在敲门似的，就连半睡半醒的我也感觉到我的床在不断地摇动。这时候，原本已不大稳固的天花板就像要塌下来似的，让我觉得自己就快要死去似的。害怕的我因为并未曾体验过地震的滋味，所以只好安慰自己说这只不过是一场恶梦，然后便躲在被单中渐渐地睡着了。今天早上当教授问起地震的事时我才发觉昨晚所发生的不是一场梦，而是我真的经历了我人生的第一次地震！虽然根据新闻报导，昨天发生的只不过是一场轻微的地震，但当我想起昨晚的事时我却觉得十分害怕，害怕我再被迫要与我亲爱的家人与朋友告别了。今天的我一直在想要是一秒我即将从这个世界消失了呢？人的一生中难免会有少许的遗憾，那我呢？我有什么话要对任何人说但却无法说出口的吗？我有什么事想要做但却无法完成的吗？我知道这断时间我几乎冷落了爱我的家人，但我希望他们能了解我对它们的爱与思念，我希望能对我亲爱的家人表达我对他们的爱，我希望在我离开的前一秒能亲眼见到我的家人。我知道我真的不希望在这遥远的他乡死去，甚至有时候我明明知道自己那虚弱的身体已快要撑不下去了我还是硬撑着，一直告诉自己远离故乡的我不能让爱我的人担心。但，人有悲欢离合，月有阴晴圆缺，人总会要向这个美丽的世界告别的，不知道我离去的那一天会是什么时候能？我敬爱的家人与我亲爱得朋友，要是下一秒我即将从这个世界消失，你们会怀念我吗？我知道我会永远把你们放在心上的。

失眠的夜晚

今晚的我虽觉得有点累，但却不想睡，虽知道还有做不完的功课，但却只想把它们暂时忘掉。我失眠了吗？是因为我已经习惯了熬夜至凌晨吗？还是因为我不想这个星期五的夜晚那么快就结束？听着那温柔的音乐，对着那几乎与我朝夕相对的电脑，心中突然有一种说不出的平静。不为功课或考试而熬夜，只因为我爱黑夜的宁静而未入睡。哦，是的，这样的夜晚应该就是我所期待的吧。好希望下一寂静的夜晚能尽快来临哦！

我累了

今天早上起来时，觉得双眼好痛哦，大概是因为昨晚哭了的关系吧。我好不愿意离开那温暖的床，但我知道老师会点名，所以只好拖着那疲累无比的身躯去上课。平时上Physics课时，贴心的教授总会在中途时播放一些好笑的影片，通常我会笑得好开心，但今天即使我明明觉得那段影片真的很搞笑，我只能勉强的挤出一丝丝的微笑，仿佛是为了应酬而笑似的。中午回到房间时，我很快便躺在床上睡着了。在那短短一小时的睡眠里，我做了一个可怕的恶梦，最后还从梦中惊醒，被逼起床准备上下一堂课。迷迷糊糊的我觉得整个世界仿佛在旋转似的，就连走路也差一点撞到人。好不容易上完最后一堂课，但却要准备晚餐。也许做饭真的需要用心，今天的我连最简单的炒饭也炒不好，就连自己也觉得难以入口，怎么让Teda和Ily吃呢？我累了，我真的累了，我真的不晓得我那疲累的身躯还能撑到多久。

I wish I can be sick......at least i can give myself a break then

Didn't really eat much these few days....It is really a choice between food and sleep. Whenever I don't have enough sleep,I really don't have appetite to eat. Maybe you think that eating doesn't cost me that much time, but I need to spend time on cooking. I know very well that as long as I still have energy to do my work, I will keep doing unless I get sick.I really want to give myself a break.....but what can I do?Letting go is really not that easy especially when my target is to get to the top.

Heatlh VS Study

Today,in the beginning of my system programming class, my lecturer said "I hope that everyone in this class will be proud of what they did when graduating from the school". His words make me start thinking of my future, of my plan after graduating.I suddenly realized that I will a junior next semester and that I have to start preparing for my graduate school application. I knew that it is hard to get into the challenging 5-Year Master+Degree program because I have to maintain a GPA of 3.5 throughout the undergraduate years and 3.0 throughout the graduate years but I still want to give it a try. Looking back to my past semesters, I would say that I have no regret since I have tried my best in my studies. I had dropped countless tears due to the stressful student life over here. I complained so many times to my friends about my loneliness and even told that I want to commit suicide before. In the past semesters, all I did was studying and I didn't even bother to socialize and makes friends but I have started to take the initiative to expand my social circles by making more friends. I was sick these few days and my energy level was so low that I feel too weak to handle anything but I realized something. I realized that there is no limit to my commitment to my responsibility as a student but there is a limit to what my physical body can endure. Since primary school, I always choose fulfilling my responsibility as a study over my health. I could still remember that I had a fever and can't really wake up for class when I was in primary school and yet all I think about is the homework I need to hand in that day and the classes that I needed to attend. It is really not easy for me to continue doing my work when I knew that somehow my body can't really take it anymore.That's why I broke down so often and cried but this is my own choice. I can only pray that I would have enough strength to endure the pain. Hopefully my efforts will be paid off well. Could I finish writing my position paper on time? Sigh.......

原来我是那么地软弱

我看着那一大堆做不完的功课时，摸摸自己烫热的脸颊，我几乎失去了以前引以为荣的毅力。我用被单盖着自己的头，紧紧地闭上双眼，心里面好希望我能从这世界消失，但我发觉我却没有勇气那么做。

I still have a long way to go

Today, when I go into my house, I realized that there is somebody in my bedroom. He is the old maintenance guy who came to fix the kitchen light. He chatted with me for quite a long. I guess he somehow recognized me because there is something in my house that happened to be broken for some reasons and from the flooding experience that nobody has in the history of the apartment that I living in. I feel kinda bad since my bedroom is still messy as usual but it is definitely better than last time. But, instead of criticizing about the cleanliness of the house, he actually turned out to be very helpful and he even checked to see if there is other things that need to be fixed. Before the old man left, he even praised me by saying "I know that you have been through a lot and you really did a good job. I can't imagine what I will do if I were you." I was touched since I thought it must be very troublesome for him to come every single time and yet he is so considering and helpful. It is really an overwhelming experience for me to live in this apartment. I didn't even have flood in Malaysia before and yet I have experience twice in the same apartment. My heart was broken over here and I cry so much compared to the first year I came to US. I can't even cook a proper meal before and now I can cook whatever I like. I started my first job a few months after I moved in and the best part is I was able to do most of my works in my room. This is the place where Shamini stayed before she left and whenever I saw her red comforter, I think of the times I spent with her. Our relationship became much closer a few months before she left and she even slept beside me in the same bed before . Even though I had had so many sad experience in the apartment, I still like it more compared to my dorm room since I think of it as my second home. There is still a few months left before I moved out to a new apartment so I really need to appreciate every single moment that I spend here.

My Sushi ^_^

Kimchi Pancake

怀念从前

再别康桥

轻轻的我走了，
正如我轻轻的来；
我轻轻的招手，
作别西天的云彩。
　
那河畔的金柳，
是夕阳中的新娘；
波光里的艳影，
在我的心头荡漾。
　
软泥上的青荇，
油油的在水底招摇；
在康河的柔波里，
我甘心做一条水草！
　
那榆荫下的一潭，
不是清泉，
是天上虹；
揉碎在浮藻间，
沉淀着彩虹似的梦。
　
寻梦？撑一支长篙，
向青草更青处漫溯；
满载一船星辉，
在星辉斑斓里放歌。
　
但我不能放歌，
悄悄是别离的笙箫；
夏虫也为我沉默，
沉默是今晚的康桥！
　
悄悄的我走了，
正如我悄悄的来；
我挥一挥衣袖，
不带走一片云彩。


这首诗是我第一次在众人面前朗诵的第一首诗。记得当时我们正在讨论诗歌的含义，沉默寡言的我终于鼓起勇气在同学们面前发表我的意见。胆小的我怕得忘词，说了一堆不经大脑的话。老师先是不出声地望着我，几乎在思考些什么。过后，她便叫我在同学们面前朗诵这一首诗。我只好硬着头皮照办了。朗诵完毕后，同学们竟以热烈的掌声表示对我的支持与鼓励。我还记得我的好友还在记念册上告诉我纵使她认识我许久但却不知道我会朗诵诗歌呢！虽然事隔已久，但如今那首诗仍不时的浮现在我的脑海里。 悄悄的我走了，正如我悄悄的来，我挥一挥衣袖，不带走一片云彩…那潇洒自如的态度正是我所向往的。悄悄的来，悄悄的离开，不为即将降临的离别而落泪。可是，难道世界上真的有人能不为悲欢离合而落半滴眼泪吗？欢喜之泪，悲伤之泪，我想眼泪的存在一定有它的意义吧。

Food Again

Tom Yam






Curry Chicken (My favorite) ^_^




Last night I decided to cook curry chicken for Teda and Ily. Teda says my cooking skills improve again.Haahaa....I like the curry so much. Even though I spend quite a lot of time in cooking in but I feel so happy when I found out that it actually turned out to be so delicious and my friends loves so much!!!^_^



Brownies