Finding myself

I realized that these few weeks I have so busy with my homeworks,exams and mps that I have lost myself again.It seems like I am constantly engaging myself with all kinds of activities to forget about my pain. Tonight I am sitting alone in my room and I thought of the question from a friend:What do I like to do? The first thing that came into mind is cooking but cooking is really not something that I like most.Maybe because that is the only thing I can do for the time being since I need to cook everyday anyway.I am not saying that I don't like cooking but I can't really fill in my leisure hour just by cooking because I will end up wasting all the food.So,what I really like to do?I like writing articles with abstract title like "The color of happiness" and "My feeling after a rain".Writing this kind of article reveals my inner thought and makes me feel calm and peaceful.However,I stop writing that kind of article after I came to US.There is always some other things that stress me out and I just have to deal with so many things that I don't really get enough sleep and food.Below is my photos showing the first year I came to US and the recent photo I took:
Before

After

Can you spot the changes?