Insomnia

It's 3.37am and I am still awake.I am back to who I am now,a person who sleeps in the evening and wake up in the middle of the night.What happen to me?I used to that when I am too sad to sleep because before I sleep,I will always reflect on the recent happening that took place.But now,I am too scare to think about it.Maybe that's why i want to let myself be as tired as I could but i know it doesn't work.I feel so weak with all the tortures to my mind.I end up being mentally and physically exhausted.What should I do?For every single word I said to him,he won't listen.Am I demanding too much?I just want to put an end to all my sufferings but he don't even want to face it.All he said is just that he is a bad guy so being a bad guy, he can be irresponsible.For me, it's just a lame excuse,an excuse that frees him from responsibility.Again,he choose to take the easy way out. How can one grow if he is too afraid to face the truth?I am prepare to face the truth now even though the truth is often cruel but this problem belongs to the two of us.I can't move on if he is too afraid to face me.I know that even if I go and talk to him,he won't listen to me or he might just pretending to listen or he might just walk away and let me continue suffering.My only wish is that he listen to every single word I said and let me cry in front of him as hard as I could.Is he brave enough to do that?