失眠

今晚我又失眠了。想想大概已经好几天没睡好了。不懂怎么搞的，每每拖住疲倦的身体躺在床上时，脑海里就会浮现出等待完成的功课及读不完的书。反正睡不着，我便上网看看数学科的网站， 竟然发觉上星期五刚考的试放榜了。当我看到我的分数时立刻傻了眼，怎么考的那么差呀？真搞不懂当初为何花那么多的时间去准备。有时候，我真希望能停下来休息一会儿。我真的好累，星期二及星期四的考试，还有星期二及星期五要交的功课。我在想我真的能顺利把他们一一完成吗？但，星期四的考试完毕之后已经很晚了，我真的来得及做我的功课吗？我好烦哦，或许我应该大声呼喊但凌晨七时尚未入睡的我已经没力气这么做了。

幸福

今天，我收到了Karen寄来的幸福御守。我看着它，发觉幸福仿佛离我越来越远了。有时候，我觉得自己是幸福的，因为我在学业上所付出的心血都得到了回报。可是，当我好想把好消息告诉我身边的人时，我却发觉好难找到那个能与我分享快乐的人。我真的顾着读书而忽略了他们的感受吗？其实，最令我痛心的是那个我最在乎的人并不知道她在我心里面有多么地重要。我一直告诉自己我一定要坚持下去，因为我希望我所爱的人能够以我为荣，但我坚持真的值得坚持吗？要是到了最后我才发觉我赔上了的是我的幸福，我该怎么办？要是到了最后我才发觉当踏上成功的道路上的那一刻，我所爱的人却离我越来越远的时候，我又该怎么办？其实，对我来说，能与我心里最挂念的那些人在一起是我一直盼望的幸福，但或许那只是我一厢情愿的想法。我知道很多人都说我爱哭，但我不知道如何去承受那些伤人的话，更加不知道如何去面对那些误解我的人。

Happy Valentine's Day

I felt so sad when I saw people carrying flower around the campus yesterday because it reminded me of my previous relationship. Furthermore, I am stressing out knowing that I am going to spend the entire day today doing my programming and exams. I still remember that I am touched when I received the wonderful gifts from Ily last year because I think without the gifts, Valentine's Day maybe an ordinary day of doing programming like what Sue Yen mention in my facebook. Therefore, starting from this year, I tell myself that I have to start sending gifts to those around me so that they can feel my love as a friend. I hope that a packet of their favorite chocolate can help to brighten their days. This morning, I surprised my housemate by placing a gift on the table in the living room and then went back to sleep. When I wake up, I saw her smiling happily to me and I feel so contented since I always want to make her happy especially knowing that she was stressing out because of her heavy homework load and exams. I would like to wish my friends Happy Valentine's Day. I am lucky to have friend like you and I wish that you will always have a sweet smile on your face.