原来我是那么地软弱

我看着那一大堆做不完的功课时，摸摸自己烫热的脸颊，我几乎失去了以前引以为荣的毅力。我用被单盖着自己的头，紧紧地闭上双眼，心里面好希望我能从这世界消失，但我发觉我却没有勇气那么做。

I still have a long way to go

Today, when I go into my house, I realized that there is somebody in my bedroom. He is the old maintenance guy who came to fix the kitchen light. He chatted with me for quite a long. I guess he somehow recognized me because there is something in my house that happened to be broken for some reasons and from the flooding experience that nobody has in the history of the apartment that I living in. I feel kinda bad since my bedroom is still messy as usual but it is definitely better than last time. But, instead of criticizing about the cleanliness of the house, he actually turned out to be very helpful and he even checked to see if there is other things that need to be fixed. Before the old man left, he even praised me by saying "I know that you have been through a lot and you really did a good job. I can't imagine what I will do if I were you." I was touched since I thought it must be very troublesome for him to come every single time and yet he is so considering and helpful. It is really an overwhelming experience for me to live in this apartment. I didn't even have flood in Malaysia before and yet I have experience twice in the same apartment. My heart was broken over here and I cry so much compared to the first year I came to US. I can't even cook a proper meal before and now I can cook whatever I like. I started my first job a few months after I moved in and the best part is I was able to do most of my works in my room. This is the place where Shamini stayed before she left and whenever I saw her red comforter, I think of the times I spent with her. Our relationship became much closer a few months before she left and she even slept beside me in the same bed before . Even though I had had so many sad experience in the apartment, I still like it more compared to my dorm room since I think of it as my second home. There is still a few months left before I moved out to a new apartment so I really need to appreciate every single moment that I spend here.

My Sushi ^_^

Kimchi Pancake

怀念从前

再别康桥

轻轻的我走了，
正如我轻轻的来；
我轻轻的招手，
作别西天的云彩。
　
那河畔的金柳，
是夕阳中的新娘；
波光里的艳影，
在我的心头荡漾。
　
软泥上的青荇，
油油的在水底招摇；
在康河的柔波里，
我甘心做一条水草！
　
那榆荫下的一潭，
不是清泉，
是天上虹；
揉碎在浮藻间，
沉淀着彩虹似的梦。
　
寻梦？撑一支长篙，
向青草更青处漫溯；
满载一船星辉，
在星辉斑斓里放歌。
　
但我不能放歌，
悄悄是别离的笙箫；
夏虫也为我沉默，
沉默是今晚的康桥！
　
悄悄的我走了，
正如我悄悄的来；
我挥一挥衣袖，
不带走一片云彩。


这首诗是我第一次在众人面前朗诵的第一首诗。记得当时我们正在讨论诗歌的含义，沉默寡言的我终于鼓起勇气在同学们面前发表我的意见。胆小的我怕得忘词，说了一堆不经大脑的话。老师先是不出声地望着我，几乎在思考些什么。过后，她便叫我在同学们面前朗诵这一首诗。我只好硬着头皮照办了。朗诵完毕后，同学们竟以热烈的掌声表示对我的支持与鼓励。我还记得我的好友还在记念册上告诉我纵使她认识我许久但却不知道我会朗诵诗歌呢！虽然事隔已久，但如今那首诗仍不时的浮现在我的脑海里。 悄悄的我走了，正如我悄悄的来，我挥一挥衣袖，不带走一片云彩…那潇洒自如的态度正是我所向往的。悄悄的来，悄悄的离开，不为即将降临的离别而落泪。可是，难道世界上真的有人能不为悲欢离合而落半滴眼泪吗？欢喜之泪，悲伤之泪，我想眼泪的存在一定有它的意义吧。

Food Again

Tom Yam






Curry Chicken (My favorite) ^_^




Last night I decided to cook curry chicken for Teda and Ily. Teda says my cooking skills improve again.Haahaa....I like the curry so much. Even though I spend quite a lot of time in cooking in but I feel so happy when I found out that it actually turned out to be so delicious and my friends loves so much!!!^_^



Brownies